In the Quiet

The rain drips off of the metal roof listlessly, quietly, steadily. The antithesis of my life at this point. There is no quiet to raising eleven children, unless (like right now) they are all asleep. But in the dark and the peace at 5:30am, after my hero has left for work, I can gather my energy and prepare for the starting gun- the first child awakening for the day. From that point on, you just go go go, there is no stop, no down time.

My husband and I have been married for two months. Maybe I will tell you all of our story one day, maybe I won’t. What you do need to know is that sometimes, no matter how hard you try to do the right thing, life deals you a dirty hand and you get to make the best of it. And when you put your best into God’s hands and stumble and fall on His mercy, He has this uncanny ability to take your meager best and then turn it into something so glorious that it blows you away. That is our story- the story of pain and brokenness and struggle becoming wholeness and joy. My husband had five brown eyed babies when we got married. I had six blue eyed ones. Life as a single parent is a crucible; the pressure and heat from being father and mother to these precious souls and knowing that you are failing miserably because your task is impossible, this heat brings to the surface every single impurity of soul and mind, puts it on display in front of God and everybody, and leaves you feeling like there is precious little left. Maybe familiarity with the ragged edge of desperation makes me uniquely suited to the mad scramble that blending two large families creates. Maybe it just certifies me as crazy. Regardless, I sit here in the quiet, sip my coffee, pray a little… and wait for the pitter  patter of feet that launches my day into its usual insanity.

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4 thoughts on “In the Quiet

  1. Good morning šŸ˜Š
    I have been following your journey and what an incredible strong woman you have become!
    Many blessings on your day! !
    Miriam Strite

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  2. Good morning, I am now more impressed then I already was with you. I myself have been watching but from a different veiw. From what I have seen you have become a blessing to 5 sets of brown eyes and a blue eyed man. I love seeing how much you you love them all. I look forward in watching God’s plan unfold. Faith ……it’s a grand thing to have . I have alot of Faith in your whole family. Plus I am in love with the whole crew.
    Love your new sister ā™”

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  3. Beautiful piece from a remarkable and beautiful lady full of God’s grace and love. Keep up the work of the Lord, you are an inspiration to all you meet and know. Love you.

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